On Wednesday I had a consultation with a Jenny Craig advisor. I was doing a mystery shop and I had to pose as someone who was interested in losing weight through their program. Guess what I found out while I was there?
I actually weigh 6 pounds more than I thought I did.
Well, this really put me in a foul mood for the remainder of the day. Here I am thinking I weigh 130 and the truth is that I'm actually 136 and change. So, I am more determined than ever to shape up and get down to the weight I thought I was.
But I'm probably not going to do it through Jenny Craig. Though the woman was very nice and made it sound good, I'm thinking that the whole program just boils down to eating frozen low-calorie meals all the time. I could do that on my own with Lean Cuisines and Weight Watchers meals - and it wouldn't cost me $199 to start. Yeah yeah, I wouldn't get the weekly consultations and the weigh-ins and the cookbooks and extra support, but I'm a very self-reliant person. I can bitch at myself.
So, as soon as my dear husband relocates to DFW (end of next week), I'm going on a plan of my own. Breakfast will be a Special K breakfast bar and yogurt or fruit. Lunch and dinner will be Lean Cuisines, with fruit, baked chips and low-cal Haagen-Dazs yogurt sorbet bars for snacks. The Jenny Craig plan goes like this: Breakfast, snack, lunch, snack, dinner, snack. I think I can live with that. It'll also be really nice to not have to cook.
Well, I have finally broken the 130-lb mark. Want to know how I did it? I starved. Yep, starved. But not deliberately. I’ve been going through a lot of stress at home, since Mark just took a job in Dallas and we’ll have to live apart, at least for a few months. I have been sitting here trying to figure out who visits who when, if my job will let me telecommute from Dallas, whether we can get out of our lease, blah blah blah blah blah. So I haven’t had much of an appetite these days. I fixed spaghetti and meatballs last night and only ate a few bites before pouring it down the garbage disposal. The lack of appetite combined with the fact that I’m still working out adds up to 128.5 pounds. Not much of a success – I’ll likely gain the pound back when I start eating normally again – but it still feels good.
Aside: Someone is whistling the Star-Spangled Banner down the hall. Weird.
I guess I have extra motivation to lose about 5 pounds by whatever means necessary. I bought a fantastic pair (well, 2 fantastic pairs) of Earl Jeans on bluefly.com for $25 each (a steal, considering they retail for $100). The largest size they have is just a tad too small in the hips and waist (and I’m nearly a size 8!), so I need to trim up a bit and make them feel comfortable. They’re also way too long – I took them to the tailor this morning to be hemmed.
I wish the Internet would come back up. It’s been out for the past two hours and I can’t access my work e-mail, my Internet e-mail, nothing. Can’t do Internet research on some stories I’m working on. The most I can do is write a couple of things for the employee newsletter, and I’ve already done all I can do. I didn’t realize how “wired” I was until now.
UPDATE: Internet back up. But you already knew that, didn’t you?
Name: Jen Location: DFW, TX Occupation: Journalist WHY this stupid blog?: To lose the 20 pounds I've packed on since high school and to entertain you with stories about my fabulous life. Current Weight: 138 My Goal Weight: 115 Pounds to Go: 23